I have had to make decisions like, “Why am I unhappy? Okay, Stefani, Gaga, Hybrid person, why are you unhappy? Why is it that you want to quit music?”
Well, I really don’t like selling these fragrances, perfumes. I don’t like wasting my time spending days just shaking people’s hands and smiling, taking selfies.
It feels shallow to my existence. I hae a lot more to offer than my image. I don’t like being used to make people money. I feel sad when I’m overworked and that I’ve just become a moneymaking machine and that my passion and my creativity take a back seat. That makes me unhappy.
So what did I do? I started to say ‘no.’ I’m not doing that. I don’t wanna do that. I’m not taking that picture. I’m not going to that event. I’m not standing by that, because that’s not what I stand for. And slowly but surely I remembered who I am.
And then you go home, and you look in the mirror and you’re like, ‘Yes! I can go to bed with you every night, because I know that person.’ That person has balls, that person has integrity, that person has an opinion. That person doesn’t get a text from somebody and say ‘Oh my god, they wrote this, and they sent this emoji, should I write this back, what do you think, is that okay?’
This is the age that we live in. We’re not actually communicating with each other, we’re unconsciously communicating lies.